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Today I sat down to write and realised I had nothing left in me and maybe that says everything. Not sad exactly. Not overwhelmed in the loud, crashing way. Just… quiet. It’s a strange feeling when life around me is still so full. My daughter is in hospital again. The house still needs doing. TheContinue reading “Blank”

As a carer, you don’t get the luxury of falling apart. Everything depends on you, the routines, the kids, the animals, the hospital runs, the quiet things no one sees. You keep it all moving, even when you’re tired beyond words. And then something shifts. A sentence. A test result. “Abnormal cells.” “See a specialist.”Continue reading “Positive Energy”

Rainy days feel like a kind of cleansing. The sky opens and washes everything down, the streets, the trees, the dust that settles quietly on life. But life doesn’t pause for the rain. There’s still work. Still kids to get where they need to be. Still animals needing care and attention. Still the hospital, theContinue reading “Rainy days”

I’m staying at my daughter’s house while she’s back in hospital again. The ninth admission in nineteen months. Life feels like it’s permanently packed into a hospital bag these days, waiting rooms, phone calls, and the constant feeling of holding everything together with thin thread. At the house there’s also the little dog. She’s eighteenContinue reading “The Quiet Hard Things”

Sometimes life doesn’t allow the big plans. Lately my money has gone into upgrading things around the house, and with illness in the background it’s impossible to plan a holiday. You can’t book flights or look too far ahead when you don’t know what the weeks will bring. So instead, I bought myself something smallContinue reading “When Life Won’t Let You Look Too Far Ahead”

Today was a slow day. Washing, a quick shop, feeding the animals across two houses, cooking, and a hospital visit. The ordinary things that quietly fill a day. Life doesn’t always rush forward; sometimes it asks us to move slower, breathe a little deeper, and simply get through what’s in front of us.

When you have a sick child, life becomes a rollercoaster. There are moments of hope, followed by fear, and then hope again. In between, you’re trying to hold together work, family, hospital visits, and your own mind. Mental illness is insidious. It creeps in quietly and touches every part of life. And in the middleContinue reading “One day at a Time”

We already know this. What we consume affects us. News. Scrolling. Noise. Positivity. Negativity. It all lands somewhere in the mind. It’s not a revelation. But when illness or mental health struggles enter life, the noise of the world can feel heavy. That’s when the small things start to matter more, kindness, quiet, connection. AndContinue reading “Live Kind ✨”

Living with a loved one who is unwell is a roller coaster — constant ups and downs. There are small glimmers of hope, then sudden crashes again. It’s hard for everyone around them. The journey teaches you to be grateful for each day and to hold onto perspective so you can keep getting up andContinue reading “Perspective”

Three days off felt like a small pause in a fast-moving life. Today it’s back to work and into a short week again. Life seems to rush by so quickly, but today I’m also thinking of those who are quietly battling their own hard days. My thoughts are with the people who keep going, evenContinue reading “Back to Work”

Three days off was a good break and a chance to reset before the week ahead. Spent some time cleaning and getting things organised. Did something a little different to finish it off — a late night movie with my grandson. It was special spending that time together… although the late session might have beenContinue reading “Late Movie”

Fed the possum, coffee. Scrolling through the morning while it’s just getting light. The car needs cleaning, a bit of taxi duty required, lazy day. Living with the shadow of illness gives life perspective, recovery is a journey. Grateful for the now and the few days off in a row to catch up and breathe.

Well today started with a lesson… remember to chain the dog up. I forgot. The first couple of hours were spent walking around the yard filling in the holes that suddenly appeared everywhere. After that I planted a rosemary bush I’d brought home from my daughter’s place. It’s nice giving plants another home, and rosemaryContinue reading “A Bejewelled box”

Today I went along to the Teddy Bear Picnic at the school. It was such a lovely way to spend part of the day, sitting under a beautiful big tree with the children, little picnic rugs spread out and teddy bears everywhere. There’s something very special about slowing down for a moment and seeing theContinue reading “Teddy Bear Picnic”

Today I stepped away from the desk and into the city to attend a RAP planning workshop at the Melbourne Cricket Ground. What a place to gather. The Melbourne Cricket Ground holds such deep history, and walking through these beautiful old grounds reminds you how many moments, stories and generations have passed through here. ItContinue reading “A Day at the ‘G – Learning, History and New Perspectives”

Last night the sky shifted. A blood moon. A full lunar eclipse. The kind of night where you step outside and everything feels a little quieter. The moon wasn’t glowing silver like usual, it was deep red, almost copper. Soft but powerful. Not dramatic… just different. It made me stop. An eclipse is just alignment.Continue reading “When the Moon Turns Red”

This morning felt quieter. Not the kind of quiet that’s empty the kind that feels settled. The air had that softer edge to it, like the season is slowly turning its shoulder. You can feel it now. Summer loosening its grip. The light shifting just slightly earlier. I stood in the yard with my coffee,Continue reading “Steady Forward”

Today’s Monday. The day began with rain — soft, steady, cleansing. There’s something about rain at the start of a week. It feels like a reset. A quiet washing away of whatever was, making space for what’s next. The weekend was lovely — and as always, it went too fast. Barbecues. Fires crackling. Swimming. KidsContinue reading “Monday Renewal”

Last night we lit our first fire in years. The barrel was one we picked up off the side of the road. An old table gave up its iron top for a lid. Yesterday we bought a small iron grate to sit inside it. Pieced together. Practical. Ours. I cut the wood myself with aContinue reading “First Fire”

Coffee before my hair appointment. Grateful. My grandchildren stayed overnight — just lovely. I used to change hairdressers often. That stopped after what happened to my daughter. She went to a vegan hairdresser and walked out with her hair burnt off. Years of growth gone in one visit. Hair isn’t just hair. It holds identity.Continue reading “The Weekend – Trust”

Summer is quietly drawing to a close. The last few days have carried gentle hints of it, warmth lingering in the air, but this morning I was woken by the loudest thunderstorm. The kind that reminds you the seasons are shifting whether you’re ready or not. The ground is soaked, yet the air still holdsContinue reading “Steady Forward into Autumn”

I just got lost in an Instagram hole. It’s Thursday. I need to get up and get ready for work. But as I sit here, I notice something different. My whole nervous system feels less crisis-driven. Calmer. The energy around me feels steadier. Not that everything is perfect, but it’s not urgent, not chaotic, notContinue reading “Steady Forward”

There is always a problem at work. That’s what I’m employed to resolve. Policies and procedures exist for a reason, to ensure fairness, consistency, and integrity. They are meant to protect people, not to be manipulated for personal gain. When I witness bullying in the workplace, especially when policy is twisted to benefit the veryContinue reading “Conflict Resolution”

I had almost forgotten the irritation of traffic congestion after working from home for so long. One day a week in the office now feels like a luxury, and a reminder. The early rise. The steady crawl through the morning commute. Then doing it all again in the afternoon. By the time I walk backContinue reading “Work/Flexibility”

Back in the office today, it is only required one day per week. A sense of normality slowly returning as my girl looks like she’s recovering. I hope with everything in me that she continues to move forward. The past eighteen months have taught me to take nothing for granted. So many times it hasContinue reading “Hello Monday”

Up early. Pilates done. The rain lightly falling while I sit in the yard before the day properly begins. Today is the sixth day of Chinese New Year — traditionally known as “sending away poverty”. A day to clear out the old and make space for what’s ahead. That feels fitting. Today I’m cleaning outContinue reading “Sunday ✨”

My girl seems to be improving after 18 months. I’m quietly hopeful and crossing my fingers it continues. This weekend has been lovely, spending the past two days with four of the five grandchildren. The girls have just returned from a cruise and were full of wonderful stories. We just shop, eat food, taxi serviceContinue reading “Looking Inwards ✨”

There is a quiet kind of strength that doesn’t look dramatic. It doesn’t announce itself. It doesn’t demand applause. It simply shows up again today. This season isn’t about reinvention. It’s about regulation. It’s about tending to what already stands. Health is no longer a crisis to solve. It is maintenance to honour. Home isContinue reading “The discipline of Staying Steady”

Life doesn’t wait for anyone. Some days, the ordinary holds more weight than we realise. Yesterday, a friend learned her tumour, removed 18 months ago, has grown back bigger. Life can shift in an instant, and control is never guaranteed. Today, I am thinking about my daughter. She cannot feed herself. She cannot leave theContinue reading “Small Moments, Real Life”

Life accelerates. Responsibilities expand. Today, I paused. A doctor’s appointment. A check-in. A realignment for the year ahead. Not because anything is wrong — but because staying well is intentional. Health requires review. Direction requires adjustment. Energy requires protection. Positive thinking isn’t blind optimism. It’s discipline. Today was maintenance. And maintenance builds strength