Author Archives: The Lady in the Back Row.

A slow, easy start. No rush, no urgency, just letting the morning unfold as it wants to. The kind of quiet that only seems to land properly on a Saturday. I’m looking ahead to the week, not in a big overwhelming way, just small pieces. House things. Hospital things. Food, clothing, the usual organising thatContinue reading “Slow Saturday Morning”

Preparing for a return to work on Monday and have requested a flexible schedule to help manage school transport. Planning to take the kids swimming later, picking up my granddaughter’s best friend and her brother as well, will be a fun outing. I have also sent off an advocacy email providing feedback on our experienceContinue reading “Last Few Tasks”

I went out to check the second lot of peas this morning, the ones I covered properly this time. Not one left. No snail trails, no scraps. Just gone. Birds, most likely. It’s frustrating doing everything right and still ending up with nothing. Feels like a bit of a theme at the moment. Hospital isContinue reading “No Peas Again”

Six days, no food. Conversations with doctors last time saying she wouldn’t be admitted again, that the appropriate medication would be sorted. Promises, then nothing. So here we are, going back to ER again today. Yesterday, though, I stayed home. Worked in the garden. It’s not perfect, but it’s better than it was. I gotContinue reading “Groundhog Day”

No sleep last night. Just me, my phone, a bit of Netflix, and a head that wouldn’t switch off. One thing after another, work next week, kids going back to school, an unwell child, everything lining up at once. Morning still comes though. So today’s not about being amazing. It’s about getting through what needsContinue reading “Running on Empty”

Today was one of those simple but productive days. We were up early for dental and doctor’s appointments, ticking off the things that need to get done. Spent some time at home getting on top of jobs, then went for a bit of a drive and had a look through a few op shops, lookingContinue reading “Ordinary Easy Day”

Another week of leave ahead. Joy, peace, and proper rest. Had a crack at leveling the pavers not my finest work, but a little bit better than before. Now I’ve got mounds of dirt everywhere and no real plan for it yet… but that can wait. No rushing, no pressure. A bit of pottering, aContinue reading “A Rest Week Ahead.”

A cold, windy autumn day. The kind that gets into your bones and makes everything feel a bit harder than it should. Yesterday I dug up a heap of dirt, a job that turned into many and now it’s sitting, waiting. Like everything else. There’s always something around the house. You clear one thing, andContinue reading “Hope in the In-Between”

One week left of the holidays, I can feel the shift. Today’s cooler. Slower. Time to get out into the yard and actually deal with it, dig up the dirt, level it off, and lay the pavers flat so everything looks neat and settled. There are appointments, as always, but they don’t feel overwhelming today,Continue reading “Slower Pace”

Excited for the kids being excited over their collectible cards. Sorting stuff out, bit by bit. Nice being outside too, sunshine and that wind going through, just feels good. House work, normal work, glad to not be at work. Ticking off the list of things needing to be done, the important things you don’t getContinue reading “Peas and Possibilities”

Cleaning, de cluttering, proper clean-out. All the rubbish, all the stuff you just never throw out often enough… just get rid of it. Feels good once you actually start. Somewhere in between that, I need to get my licence photo, a flu shot. Then all the life admin… dentist, doctor, appointments for everyone. And inContinue reading “Priorities”

Today’s kind of day… pulling rooms apart, clearing out rubbish, finally getting to all the things that never seem to fit into normal life. Soft drizzle outside, that quiet grey that makes everything feel slower and somehow better. No urgency this morning, just space to wake up properly. Planted three tubs of peas… and they’reContinue reading “Slowing Down 🏃‍♀️‍➡️”

Yesterday was for Easter, slow, warm, and full of little moments, so the clocks didn’t get touched and neither did much else. And honestly, that felt right. Today is different. Today’s the reset. Clocks need changing, the house needs a proper clean, animals need sorting, and there’s always something to build or fix. Life doesn’tContinue reading “Easter Monday”

Easter magic this morning……,we woke up to find the Easter Bunny had been 🐰🍫 The excitement never fades. With petrol prices the way they are, the free train made the decision easy, so we headed into the city for the day. It was busy, lots of people out enjoying the sunshine and such a nice,Continue reading “Happy Easter 🐣”

Happy days, happy days. The Easter Bunny comes tonight. And I am genuinely happy about that, because the kids deserve that magic. So yes, let’s make it a nice day for the children. Let them have the excitement, the chocolate, the joy. And on a good note , my eldest granddaughter is home. A littleContinue reading “Easter Bunny comes Tonight 🐣✨”

Four years single today. Best thing that ever happened. Now? No noise. No criticism. No walking on eggshells. Just peace, real peace. And the longer it goes, the better it gets. You stop settling, stop explaining yourself, stop needing anyone else to feel okay. Then there’s real life. Back to the hospital again today, hearingContinue reading “Good Friday ✨”

18 days leave, nothing big planned. Just staying home, breathing, slowing down. Life still moving though. Eldest grandson with a knee the size of a balloon after crashing his bike. Eldest granddaughter with me for now, while things settle. In between all that, made an Easter bonnet with the youngest. Sat at school listening toContinue reading “Easter Bonnet Parade🐣✨”

What an interesting day. Last day of work, busy tying up loose ends before a couple of weeks’ leave. Yesterday’s doctor’s appointment brought something new: finally, a proper plan after almost two years. Then my eldest granddaughter called for a lift. Dinner turned into back-and-forth trips after a fight with her mum and back toContinue reading “Plans and Detours”

Today, I will leave work again. Again with that same explanation, the same look, the same quiet calculation of how much more time I can take before it starts to matter. Third specialist appointment. You would think by now there would be movement, a decision. Something concrete. A plan. A shift. But instead, it feelsContinue reading “Waiting in the Car While the System Takes Its Time”

Long. Tedious. One of those days where you’re just watching the clock, counting it down hour by hour. Two more days and then a break. But underneath it all was this constant uncomfortable feeling. Nothing specific, just sitting there all day, like something not quite right that wouldn’t shift. Dinner with the kids is neverContinue reading “Monday”

Up at 5:30 this morning. No rush to move, just lying there for a bit, easing into the day, scrolling and letting the quiet settle around me. A birthday party on today for my granddaughter’s friend, one of those simple, sweet lunchtime gatherings at a play centre. Yesterday was all about preparation. Getting things linedContinue reading “Sunday”

I wake up to rain, not the heavy, miserable kind, but a soft, steady fall. The kind that feels refreshing. Cleansing. Like the world is quietly rinsing itself clean. I pick up my phone and start scrolling. Just a quick look, I tell myself. But the longer I stay there, the heavier it feels. EverythingContinue reading “Between the Rain and the Noise”

Done with the work week. Ran straight to Pilates. Body showed up, but energy didn’t quite follow. One of those sessions where you’re there, you’re moving, but you know you’re running on empty. Still counts though. It always counts. Too tired tonight to really wind down properly. No big rituals, no long exhale just thatContinue reading “Done for the Week ✨”

Every human on this planet lives with uncertainty. No one is promised tomorrow. We plan, hope, and assume… but we don’t actually know what’s coming next. Certainty isn’t real. It’s a feeling. Humans have always known this. Long before everything was mapped out, tracked, and explained, people still woke up not knowing what the dayContinue reading “Living With Uncertainty”

Somewhere in the night, I had a dream that felt incredibly real. A young love, who hasn’t been here for years. Funny how the mind works… he kissed me, and I could still remember it when I woke up. Sat on the step with a coffee in hand, looking up at the sky. Clear, vast,Continue reading “Stars, Coffee, and Everything In Between”

I am on hold to triage again this morning. It’s become routine in a way I never expected, not because it’s easy, but because it’s necessary. You learn quickly that if you want something heard, it has to be recorded somewhere that matters. I used to call the team directly. That felt like the rightContinue reading “Tuesday, and Learning the Steps”

We went for a drive in the warm sun, chasing sea glass. It turns out we picked the wrong time, the tide wasn’t in our favour. There were only tiny little pieces here and there, nothing like what we’d hoped for. One of those quiet reminders that some things can’t be rushed… you just haveContinue reading “The Right Tide”

Big plans yesterday. I was going to go take us all for a drive, get out, for a change of scenery. Instead, I came home… and stayed. Probably a smarter thing to do anyway as petrol is skyrocketing. I spent the day in the yard, getting through all those little jobs that had been waiting.Continue reading “Home, Green and Quiet Wins”

Had a sleep in this morning……actual luxury. No alarm, no rushing. My daughter was discharged yesterday, so we’re back in the “wait for the next admission” loop. Yes, the house needs cleaning. Yes, the garden is quietly judging me. But I’m calling it, this is a partial self-care weekend. Pedicure? Highly likely. Random drive? AlsoContinue reading “Sleep in required ✨”

There’s a definite shift in the air now. The mornings are colder, the kind that make you hesitate before getting out of bed, and the days aren’t carrying that same heat they were just weeks ago. You can feel the season turning, even if it’s subtle. Good Friday is only two weeks away, and withContinue reading “Weekend Ahead”