Author Archives: The Lady in the Back Row.

Today, I will leave work again. Again with that same explanation, the same look, the same quiet calculation of how much more time I can take before it starts to matter. Third specialist appointment. You would think by now there would be movement, a decision. Something concrete. A plan. A shift. But instead, it feelsContinue reading “Waiting in the Car While the System Takes Its Time”

Long. Tedious. One of those days where you’re just watching the clock, counting it down hour by hour. Two more days and then a break. But underneath it all was this constant uncomfortable feeling. Nothing specific, just sitting there all day, like something not quite right that wouldn’t shift. Dinner with the kids is neverContinue reading “Monday”

Up at 5:30 this morning. No rush to move, just lying there for a bit, easing into the day, scrolling and letting the quiet settle around me. A birthday party on today for my granddaughter’s friend, one of those simple, sweet lunchtime gatherings at a play centre. Yesterday was all about preparation. Getting things linedContinue reading “Sunday”

I wake up to rain, not the heavy, miserable kind, but a soft, steady fall. The kind that feels refreshing. Cleansing. Like the world is quietly rinsing itself clean. I pick up my phone and start scrolling. Just a quick look, I tell myself. But the longer I stay there, the heavier it feels. EverythingContinue reading “Between the Rain and the Noise”

Done with the work week. Ran straight to Pilates. Body showed up, but energy didn’t quite follow. One of those sessions where you’re there, you’re moving, but you know you’re running on empty. Still counts though. It always counts. Too tired tonight to really wind down properly. No big rituals, no long exhale just thatContinue reading “Done for the Week ✨”

Every human on this planet lives with uncertainty. No one is promised tomorrow. We plan, hope, and assume… but we don’t actually know what’s coming next. Certainty isn’t real. It’s a feeling. Humans have always known this. Long before everything was mapped out, tracked, and explained, people still woke up not knowing what the dayContinue reading “Living With Uncertainty”

Somewhere in the night, I had a dream that felt incredibly real. A young love, who hasn’t been here for years. Funny how the mind works… he kissed me, and I could still remember it when I woke up. Sat on the step with a coffee in hand, looking up at the sky. Clear, vast,Continue reading “Stars, Coffee, and Everything In Between”

I am on hold to triage again this morning. It’s become routine in a way I never expected, not because it’s easy, but because it’s necessary. You learn quickly that if you want something heard, it has to be recorded somewhere that matters. I used to call the team directly. That felt like the rightContinue reading “Tuesday, and Learning the Steps”

We went for a drive in the warm sun, chasing sea glass. It turns out we picked the wrong time, the tide wasn’t in our favour. There were only tiny little pieces here and there, nothing like what we’d hoped for. One of those quiet reminders that some things can’t be rushed… you just haveContinue reading “The Right Tide”

Big plans yesterday. I was going to go take us all for a drive, get out, for a change of scenery. Instead, I came home… and stayed. Probably a smarter thing to do anyway as petrol is skyrocketing. I spent the day in the yard, getting through all those little jobs that had been waiting.Continue reading “Home, Green and Quiet Wins”